I’m sitting on the terrace of my beautiful airnbnb in San Pedro, Lake Atitlan and thoroughly enjoying it. Yesterday we graduated from our 200 YTT at Casa Kula - it was magical, full of gratitude and love. I feel heavy hearted, but also excited at what’s to come. This was an experience of living and learning in a community of like-minded souls and wow I’ve learnt so much from each and everyone of them! And as a result of being Seen, something in me has shifted. For the better, and though I am not quite sure what that is just yet, it feels good, more peaceful, more certain. Thank you beautiful community, thank you universe.
I am set to stay here in San Pedro for a week, and have nothing booked after. Last year, when this happened, I had manifested a perfect opportunity at Villa Sumaya which was an amazing experience. So this year, I will sit with the unknowing, slightly more uncomfortable this time round, but I am certain something will make itself known clearly.
Returning to solo mode after being around people all the time for the last 3 weeks felt very much like fomo. Solo fomo. But then I arrived at the airbnb and its aaaaaall goooood brooo. I immediately wondered if I could negotiate a deal if I were to stay a month here. Worth asking. It’s quiet, it’s less than a minute from the lake front - a lush, sparsely crowded what seems like agricultural plots around, garden space, terrace, an upstairs den/yoga/meditation space. This too was a fluke.
I saw it on Booking.com and it only had a handful of reviews or less but something drew me to it and I followed that thread rather than overthinking it. Now, it’s clear that the universe is edging me to take this yoga (and holistic wellness) path seriously, giving me what I need to make a solid start. No more procrastinating; it’s full speed ahead with spa days in between!
Finally got a direct contact for bead jewellery design / maker based locally, which is another gift telling me that I should, in parallel, explore this path as well. I do love this because first of all, I love beads. Second of all, it ties in well with the bead project I had started before I left travelling. It’s funny because, when I delve deep, I realise that I always knew that the purpose of this year’s travels would be to find and start building more steady ground re Myth Making Studio (website to be published soon). And since coming back from travels last year, I haven’t ‘pushed’ anything - it didn’t feel like it - it felt like floating and being lost sometimes so when you start noticing the gold threads appearing, the larger picture starts to become sharper.
Not pushing for me feels like (omg, hummingbird right in front of me!) doing out of curiosity, play, experimenting, tuning in and following those healthy pangs of desire without attaching to (seeking) a desired outcome.
My toes are so itchy - the coffee flies are lethal. The itchiness wakes me up at night, and it turns me into quote an awesome girl I met on my yoga training “a feral animal scratching away”. It’s horrid, intense, yet so satisfying to scratch. ‘Scratching an itch’, which is exactly what I’m describing above.
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